I really miss Happy's presence...was alone at home yesterday late noon...
singing somewhere out there... and looking at his photos...
oh mann... tears come flowing out naturally...
my heart felt numb... he's actually gone?
i rmbed when he passed on, he didnt close his eyes entirely... still leaving on a small gap...
maybe he was actually trying to hang on so that to see me one last time...
but he couldnt... he juz had to give up cos his system couldnt take it any longer...
he's so small yet had a strong living will...
2 mths back, i told him to hang on a little longer... dont leave me yet...
but... if he had to go, pls go...
he hung on for 2 mths... i thank Happy for being so thoughtful...
he's my confidante... i lost my closest soulmate...
the first look at Happy, i felt a kinda unretractable fate...
its too gd or too impossible to believe... he actually listens to what i said...
i came back last night... noone was at home...
there used to be Happy waking up from his lazy sleep...
eyes still trying to keep it open... then jumping for joy when he identified my smell...
WARMTH... this is wat i felt...
anytime but last night... noone... not even Happy... was there...
Happy's always smiling... mild tempered...
a face that always is mischievous yet trying to act innocent... he's indeed innocent...
he's pure in heart and soul... no worries or dileamas...
he's an animal... with human instincts... he knows LOVE...
he communicates... he bit me a few times... that's to me show me wat he's feeling..
I jus love to look at him.., stare at his cage...
looking at him for a few hrs...
wat he's doing in his little habitat...
he has a heavy butt... thats y he walks like a little Humpty Dumpty...
he rubs his nose with mine... he loves getting rubbed on the forehead too...
2 ears with 2 different shades... ones grey, the other's pinkish white (bitten by Naughty)
symbol of love from Naughty? she juz wan Happy to remember her afterall...
My little furry friend... i'll write to ya again...
~Esther Cheychey
My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll always be with you.
Yeah, he caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
he could see from my face that I was,
high,
And I think that I'll see him again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw you face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll always be with you.
You're beautiful. You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on his face
posted by soulmate @ 8:06 AM
2 Comments:
Grief is a painful thing... & something that only a person who has experienced the loss will understand. Take your time to go through it... take ur time to cry, to remember Happy, to smile at his little antics...
Because after grief, the pain and loss will recover to become a strong everlasting memory of a wonderful hammie you ever got. :)
thank u so much...
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